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Hotmail acc also change to edesonism@hotmail.com

to save money so I can do better things with it.

Like travelling

Quite sian.

Wun stop DDR thou, it help me maintain my weight.

sms bill $56+ -.-”

When should I go down dbg? tsk

money money money

Owe people money, return people money, 天经地义.

Those who still owe people money, zi dong.

Don’t give lj excuse boh lui, got money touch bemani = got lui.

As simple as that, dun understand? brain stuck lj issit?

I thought of it, hey, I need an English name!

So I see that guy whom I think so shuai in my sch and so I copy him.

Jonathan Lee Yan Wei, woooooot.

Years later, Jonathan was killed, killed by the one who is carved on his arm.

Edeson is being brought to life by somebody, whom died not long after that.

Thus Edeson decided to bear that name forever.

Thinking of it, it seems that Edeson shldnt be my name. I totally disgrace that name, failed to honour it and broke all the promises under the oath.

Edeson always break promise, always. I had try to not break anymore, but it seems that I’m always breaking it.

Fuck.

…

Being crazy at late night/early morning again.

Fuck, I should go sleep now, before I get into state of emo shyt.

Im the worst. Sorry.

Im just someone who play game and play game and play game.

Nth else.

What is my purpose in life?

When did I lost my purpose?

I once had a purpose in life, she ruined it, ruined it badly, very very badly.

Tough shit.

Human can be so fragile and strong. Wth is exactly human.

When I thought I found my another purpose in life, she have to go against me.

Next when I think I can get a new life, she…

Wait.

See, justify my wrong doings again.

I’m always blamnig others.

Get the fact right, it’s always you who are in fault, you are the worst.

It means that im really really really sad about it.

That word came from somebody whom I owe a lot to but yet I don’t think I have the face to face him ever again.

Sadness.

when you are in wrong yet you don’t see it yourself until its over.

I used to do those stupid shyts and yet still think I’m right.

Time past, I rethink back, eh, its so farking obvious that Im in wrong, why I don’t realise it in the past?

Years gone, I’m still donig stupid shits and yet think I’m right, only when its past then I realise im ni da wrong

What da fuck, why so hard to be a human. Why im so so so stupid.

Sadness.

What a line.